Motivation: to not give up!!
I’ve become a professional at starting over. Over a period of time, I’ve developed the muscle of giving up on things and then starting back over. For example, I’ve been stuck, AGAIN, at chapter 9 “Learning To Wait” of John Ortberg‘s If You Want to Walk on Water, You’ve Got to Get Out of the Boat. I’ve been waiting to get out the boat and walk on water but haven’t achieved the goal because I keep giving up. I’ve stopped reading the book – twice at this point – and started it all over again. Instead of starting the book over, I’m going to begin at chapter 9 and finish the book out by tomorrow, Wednesday the latest.
Other areas where I’ve given up and started over again: job searching, de-cluttering my apartment, writing my novel, writing this blog, meeting new people, attempting to date, and so on. Why? What is the true issue for me? Waiting with patience for the things I desire.
“Waiting is the hardest work of hope.” —Lewis Smedes
In John Ortberg’s book, chapter 9 starts off with the quote above about waiting. This pretty much sums it up for me; I’m having a difficult time waiting in this season. I’m waiting for a new opportunity, waiting to find my passion, waiting to develop my purpose, waiting for love, waiting for blessings to come upon my family, waiting, waiting, waiting… I’m a tad bit tired of waiting and want to give up. But in order to not give up hope, I can’t give up on waiting. It’s all about the timing of things.
I’m waiting and hoping:
1) to finish John Ortberg’s book,
2) to execute my blog writing plans and be consistent,
3) to motivate myself and continue writing my novel,
4) to continue my job searching and applying; believing a new opportunity is on it’s way,
5) to de-clutter my apartment and give away items that someone else can benefit from,
6) to have a work/life balance,
7) to have the type of love that I truly deserve.
Waiting, hoping and shifting,
Fight. Finish. Faith. (2 Timothy 4:7 NKJV)