And it begins again… Reality bites! It all started over again for me yesterday; my return to work from medical leave. For twelve weeks, I’d been on medical leave from work while recuperating from surgery. The time off for medical leave presented me the opportunity to rest and refresh myself from my hectic, stress-filled job for a few weeks. In addition, it was an excellent time for me to start back reading and writing.
“If we are not allowed to deal with small problems, we will be destroyed by slightly larger ones. When we come to understand this, we live our lives not avoiding problems, but welcoming them them as challenges that will strengthen us so that we can be victorious in the future.” ― Jim Stovall
And so my writing and blogging began… During the month of November, I participated in the BlogHer’s National Blog Posting Month (NaBloPoMo) challenge. This challenge encouraged me to write and post during the month of November. Requirement: to post Monday through Friday, resting or writing on the weekends, throughout the month. It was an awesome way for me to be motivated to write again, since the last time I posted on my blog was earlier this year. I continued to flow with the blogging using writing prompts by WordPress and those listed on the BlogHer website. There were days I had my challenges and there were those “motivated by experience” days where my writing simply flowed. It was a nice grove until my brick wall…
“The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.” ―Randy Pausch
My “brick wall” is the source of my income, my livelihood and it pays the rent. This brick wall is an obstacle for me in having a work/life balance; it’s all work and little-to-none life. Work sucks the absolute life out of my life. I rarely look at television, read a book, try a new recipe to cook, do dinner with friends, or simply enjoy my personal time after 5 o’clock. Those are some of the things I had to opportunity to do while I was on medical leave! It took me to be on medical leave to read 3-4 books, start blogging, cooking again, trying new recipes and to watch television! WOW!! That’s what it feels like to come home and not have to do anything work related! [Side note: Before anyone assumes I'm being ungrateful, please know I am grateful for a paycheck! I didn't say the "brick wall" was my paycheck; it's the job itself that is the "brick wall".]
My first day back to work resulted in two things: 1) I came home after 5pm only to do more work until 10:30pm and 2) no blog post. [I'm surprised I'm attempting to write something tonight since I'm tired out of my mind! Please forgive me for any typos and/or sentences that absolutely make no sense. I'll check this over in the morning.] It is evident that I need to make major changes in order to have balance in my life again. If I don’t, I’ll have the same results as before – burned out and not enjoying life. I refuse to return back to that unbalanced life!
This shift back to reality is about adjusting sails. It’s about doing what is necessary to “catch the winds” in order for me to sail into my destiny. I will have to embrace this challenge of returning to work by:
1) Creating a manageable work/life balance to my best ability.
2) Search for something that would be rewarding and with purpose.
3) Planning a schedule in order to enjoy some personal time.
4) Soak up all the motivation my soul needs to tackle on the challenge.
5) Refresh my spirit by seeking inspirational quotes, messages and books.
6) Set writing goals so that I will not go missing for 3-6 months from my own blog!
7) Enjoy the simple things of life… walking in the park, reading a book outdoors, volunteering, listening to jazz music and and enjoying a nice glass of wine. Just the simple satisfying things of life.
I’m waiting, believing and shifting.
Fight. Finish. Faith. (2 Timothy 4:7 NKJV)